I have no excuse for my absence and…
I have no excuse for my absence and neglect of this blog because I still consider it very important to me. So lets just dive back in.
I am feeling some kind of way right now. This video captures part of it..
My whole life it was just one way. My hair was “hard to manage” so relaxing it (straightening perming chemically altering) was the only way. Even when I took my braids out and my hair was long and wild I didn’t know how to handle it. Me and almost every little black girl is told the same thing one way or another. ”Going natural” is expensive and time consuming and hard and you will have so many more “ugly days” and you don’t even know how it will look or if that look will suit you and there is so much less to do with it…. and it runs on a loop in your head and all you want is to feel human. The hair that grows out of your head makes you less of something and people will call you nappy and liken your tresses to pubic hairs (happened to me) and it is hard enough being a girl without inviting that into your life.
Now I touch my hair and I cannot explain the feeling. Like I feel unbound. Like that feeling you get when you are relieved of a great burden. Like when you learn the truth and the constant ticker of lies finally stops in your head. I can look in the mirror and see myself and no one else. I can do everything. Thinking about it I almost want to cry over all the bullshit.
